oh what the hell, a few words before i attempt to sleep.

its after fucking midnight and i NEED to be in bed. i dont know why i do this shit night after night. staying up till late knowing i have to be up early as fuck.

its even worse on monday & wednesday nights because it'll be late and i'll stare at the clock knowing that i have to be up in a few hours to face a tuesday or thursday of 8 hours of work followed by 6 hours of school.

yet, i continue to stay up and then feel like shit on the long days.

one day i'll get responsible, until then i will suffer the consequences of lack of sleep.

its been really cold lately as well. this will be my first real winter since i moved away from Colorado. i used to talk about how i wasnt a real floridian, but the fact that im feeling like a goddamn icicle when the weather is only in the 30's just proves to me that i did infact become a floridian and get used to the warm weather. we havent turned the heat on yet because we're cheap and poor, but im starting to think i'll have to soon--but i just want to see one month of an electric bill with no heat or a/c. why? no clue.

i really feel stupid actually writing about my life and not my feelings.
this really will be a pointless blog.

enjoy!