i feel "off". i don't really know what it is - ok i probably know what it is but because it's too hard for most people to understand it's much easier to say i don't know why i feel the way i do then to try and explain it to someone who [by no fault of their own really] just wont get it.
There are 66 days until the wedding. SIXTYFUCKINGSIX.
In the next 66 days I am:
Taking an even heavier school load
moving out of one place and into another
putting the final touches on an out of state wedding
Ok so, that's kind of a lot to deal with and maybe that's why I'm feeling the way I am. I'm sure it's part of it but there is still that underlying issue that follows me around from day to day, month to month, and year to year and I am just not sure when that cloud is going to part - but I hope soon.
10 months ago