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i am overwhelmed by life right now.

dear wedding - please hurry up and come
dear school - please dont kill me this semester
dear world - please stop making me feel so goddamn isolated and disheveled.

woe is me or something

i feel "off". i don't really know what it is - ok i probably know what it is but because it's too hard for most people to understand it's much easier to say i don't know why i feel the way i do then to try and explain it to someone who [by no fault of their own really] just wont get it.

There are 66 days until the wedding. SIXTYFUCKINGSIX.

In the next 66 days I am:
Taking an even heavier school load
moving out of one place and into another
putting the final touches on an out of state wedding
getting married.

Ok so, that's kind of a lot to deal with and maybe that's why I'm feeling the way I am. I'm sure it's part of it but there is still that underlying issue that follows me around from day to day, month to month, and year to year and I am just not sure when that cloud is going to part - but I hope soon.

Home again

Chicago was great of course. I will update at some point about the Chicago trip/New Years. I promise!

The show was so awesome - will also update about that!