living in layoff land

i seriously need to get on a better schedule. I told Todd tonight before he left for work that i was just going to take some tylenol PM or some shit so that i could get back on something normal, but i have yet to do that.

so in this job search of mine i've been thinking about things. it's so nice to have a cushion of money in your bank account and not have to worry about finances. i need to find a job asap so that things dont start getting bleak and we dont have to start living like poor people. i HATE that feeling and havent felt it in a while so i'd really prefer not to go back to that.

im not being picky about jobs right now, and even though i know i wont make near what i was making before it's still a low blow when positions are offering almost $10.00 less an hour than you were making at a previous job.

layoffs are WHACK. if i did something bad and got fired i'd only have myself to blame for losing out on a large chunk of money but fuck- it wasnt even my fault. of course i'd have to experience my first company lay off with an awesome job making good money.

i do feel lucky that im still getting some kind of money every week, but i cant stomach this not working shit much longer. i fucking hate it.


i have decided to volunteer at the hospital near me in the mean time so at least i feel somewhat productive & will continue to send out my resume and pray for interviews.